Your Task Is Not To Seek For Love…

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Am I unlovable?
Am I too different?
Am I too extra?
I wanted to start in my own rom-com and have someone fall head over heels for me.
Am I letting past hurts keep the wall up?
Am I not allowing myself to trust?
Am I too scared to be vulnerable?
Why is needing someone wrong? Why is wanting to feel needed so wrong?
Am I too set in my ways?
Am I too tainted to wear white?
Am I too hard to please?
I want that connection. I want to feel like I’ve come home.
Am I too sensitive?
Am I too zany?
Am I too clever?
Why is finding someone who can naturally banter and laugh so difficult? Is that saying in order to find love, you must love yourself first really true? Isn’t it more about timing and creating opportunities?
There is a heaviness to me that wasn’t there in the past. I now see that I will never be attracted to average or simple. I can’t connect with someone who hasn’t been through something earth shattering.
Am I asking too much?
Am I wanting too much?
Am I too much?

by Megan-Claire Chase

Megan-Claire Chase is a three-year breast cancer survivor in Atlanta, GA. She is a marketing project manager by day. In her spare time, she writes a blog called Life On The Cancer Train and is a published cancer blogger for Lacuna Loft, IHadCancer.com, CancerBro, Humor Beats Cancer, GRYT Health, WILDFIRE Magazine and Rethink Breast Cancer just to name a few. One of her biggest achievements in 2019 was co-presenting an abstract on AYA perspectives on fertility preservation conversations with healthcare providers at the American Psychosocial Oncology Society (APOS) conference in Atlanta. She also has cat named Nathan Edgar who is her pride and joy.

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This writing comes directly from one of our participants in our Unspoken Ink Creative Writing Group for young adult cancer survivors.  The participants met for 2 hours each week, for 8 weeks during our Spring 2019 session.  This writing has not been edited since its original creation, showing the wonderfully raw and powerful prose coming from the courageous writing group participants each week.  If you’d like to sign up for future sessions, please email info@lacunaloft.org or sign up on our interest form.